Ideal Memoir・理想の回顧録
ENG 100 - EoS Anthology
By: Blaze K. Calizo
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Introduction・序章
Hello there! ૮₍˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶₎ა This carrd functions similarly to a website, if you ever get lost, please come back to me and I'll help you! ૮₍ ˶ᵔ ▽ ᵔ˶ ₎აYou can find me at the very top of each page! ૮₍˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶₎აPlease click the '→' button, to progress to the next page.
Personal Dedication・個人の献身
To the people of my Past, Present, and Future. And most importantly, to you, Blaze.・幻想的なエクスタシーを追いかけるのをやめないでください。I'd also like to dedicate this page to Kaya, Danny, Cass, Tae, Meadel, Maverick, Dezyre, Pono, Julia, Deli, Hylen, Mika, Lily, Laila, Nadia, and Brass for making this segment of my life even more enjoyable. I'm really thankful to have met all of you and hope we can continue to create everlasting memories in the future.
From here on out, you'll be able to go back and forward until you meet either end of the site. If you ever get lost please refer to '૮₍˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶₎ა' at the very top of the page.
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Literary Mission Statement・文学的使命声明
I originally wrote for my eyes only, as a way to document moments in my life, to be kept on a page in a book on a shelf high above. I've always wanted to share my stories with people, but never did, would they understand the words of which I wrote? Would they cherish that moment we would spend together?I was always passionate about writing and never thought to change it, I knew it could be improved upon, but why should I change it if nobody cared? A good friend of mine told me to do things for me and myself only, and I've been living for me ever since we've departed.I still continue to write myself, but with an additional purpose. After being exposed to many literary works and many songs, I hope with my work I can bring or help bring somebody to peace with either themselves or something that they struggle with. Like a dove carrying the branch of peace, I hope my stories will carry and impart peace upon the troubled.I like to think I achieved my goals, but what have I achieved? I've got a long way to go before I can feel fulfilled with myself and my work, and the future is all that I have now. ・私のためだけでなく、私を信じてくれたすべての人のために、私は突き進まなければなりません。
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Table of Contents・目次
・Cover (Intro. Page)
・Personal Dedication - Page 1
・Literary Mission Statement - Page 2・Chapter 1: Quiescent Ardor - Page 4
・Principles of Romanticism - Page 6
・Witnessed Passings - Page 8・Chapter 2: Reminisced Ecstasies - Page 9
・Illusory Moon River - Page 11
・Ecstasies, Doves, and Prairies - Page 12・Chapter 3: Released Peace - Page 13
・It's Called Freefall - Page 15
・Laws of Life - Page 16
・It's You - Page 17・The End - Page 18
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Quiescent Ardor・静かな熱意
Chapter 1
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Quiescent Ardor・静かな熱意
Have you ever found yourself sitting in a dark pit, with ways out yet you choose to stay? Have you ever found yourself drowning in the ocean, unable to swim, and slowly descending to the depths, but contempt with your fate? Have you ever found yourself alone at the top of the world, on the edge of it all, wanting to fly knowing you're unable to?This is all metaphorical of course but, do you know what I mean? Have you ever become at peace with something that has bothered you?If you have, then you may relate to my pieces. And if not, I do hope my pieces open your eyes. I may not know what you're going through, but I do hope you achieve peace someday.The following excerpt on the next page is a poem I've written from that dark pit, from the ocean I descend within, and from the edge I once sat. Please, read and enjoy the story I have to tell.
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Principles of Romanticism・ロマン主義の原則
Poetry Primer - Start
I’ve grown to love the moon and the beautiful abyss which surround it.
Oh, so many nights has the moon witnessed disillusioned enlightenment and overdosed ecstasies.
Yet it never judged,
it always shown down upon you,
and was always there above you,
regardless of what you did.I’ve grown to love the birds which graze upon the prairies.
The pesky passerine had no attractive traits,
yet after some time,
I come to understand them.
They’re not so different from the rest,
and they live their own way of life,
why must one harbor hatred against them?I’ve grown to love the passing of time.
Each second a moment worth living for,
each minute a moment worth anticipating,
and with each hour comes temporal tranquility like no other.
No day isn’t worth fighing for,
but after fighting for so long,
you can only give so much to a fight you will never win.I’ve grown to love the flame you’ve torched upon my heart,
it drove me insane,
but that insanity propelled me to achieve my deepest and grandest ambitions.
I don’t know why you influenced me so,
did someone torch your heart just the same?
The birds can only fly if their wing’s are imbued with purpose.I’ve grown to love the maintenance required of my condition.
The days and nights in complete solitude quiet me,
and bestill the burning heart.
The heart never experienced such a prolonged period of sobriety,
it yearns for ecstasy,
knowing of it’s cruel insanity.I’ve grown to love the world in which I live in,
a world of illusion and facade.
A web of lies and truths held close,
A deluded dirge of a departed soul.I’ve grown to love the life I lived,
maybe one day,
I shall grow to love the life I’m living.
Poetry Primer - End
How was it? Did you enjoy it? Did you get the main gist?After you've read that piece, I want you to hold onto whatever feelings you have, and listen to this song:The artist Frank Ocean composes many powerful ballads that move me to tears on almost every listen, this song is 'White-Ferrari', you can click this button and it'll take you to a YouTube video of the song.There are no visuals, but I do recommend closing your eyes and listening to the song and applying your life and your story to the song.
After you've finished listening to the song, you may move onto the next page.
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